This track, and the rest on the EP, were recorded at the Pass in one day. No overdubs, Just live to tape so a bit raw and on the fly sounding but (mostly) in a good way. This particular track just about falls apart at one point but the mighty Craig Elkins trio pulls it together and finishes strong.


Since I wrote that song my muse has killed herself and the other one is fucking mental
And I have aged a little, lost my pickle trying to do the right thing
A ton of regrets and lost respect and found religion on the way back down
I might adjust but I can’t change and that is the shaky ground I’m standing on

I am always fucked
And almost never free
To be my fucked up self

And my soul hurts too just like you, aches and moans but the way everybody roles these days
You cannot tell, it’s all fantastic, great, fine how are you, I’m fine too
But none of my friends have changed they’re all exceptional
And they’ll be that way forever
The moves they’ve made may seem like the moves everyone else has made but that’s just cuz you don’t know them

I am always fucked
And almost never free
To be my fucked up self

I remember very distinctly these words that my father said to me
He licked his fingers, sighed and moaned “just out of idle curiosity, son, what were you thinkin? Did you wanna get caught with that knife in your pocket in the parking lot?” but I was just showing off, just trying to be liked by the popular kids, with the sting ray bikes

That’s basically where I’m at oh and I got fat
Did I forget to mention that
But the truth is it’s always been an issue, fatty tissue and my ass have always got along swell
And although I can’t tell what you’re thinking I can see by what you’re drinking that we’re both chompin on the same bit
From our fingers to our toes we both compose but we’re afraid to make the cold calls


from The Dark Side of the Valley, released June 2, 2013
Trio -recorded at the Pass in Studio City, CA. Marko Fox: Bass, Lawrence "Champagne Larry" DeGasperin: Drums, Craig Elkins: Guitar, Vocals.

Huge thanks Marko for the studio time and to Josh and the rest of the engineers (who's names escape me) that helped on the recording.


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Craig Elkins, the former frontman for Huffamoose (Interscope) & Phila. ex-pat, lives in Southern California with his fabulous wife, insane 10 year old daughter, 4 cats and a dog.

"There isn't a more brutally honest songwriter in America" writes Andrew Ervin, author & music critic.
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